So for the past few days I've been soul searching. For a secret answer, the magic number, the golden ticket, basically anything that would give me the ah-ha effect. Guess what I came up with? Nothing. Should I count calories to reach my goal, do I up my already challenging workout schedule and add more, or do I eat within moderation again and don't count calories, do I join weight watchers again, do I do nothing and just give up. Only one of those right now, seems feasible (besides give up) Eat within moderation. Back to the portion board.

I deleted myfitnesspal. Sorry girls, I can't pretend to care that you ran for 30 minutes, when really, I'm jealous as hell, that even though I did the same thing as you, your workout seemed better than mine. I'm just being a realist. I've only been on facebook 1 time since yesterday afternoon...and OMGosh the things I accomplished last night. I've decided to step back and work on me, something I've needed to do for a long time. Quit that comparing crap. I'm not them, I'm me. Say it with me "I AM ME!"

I got measured today and lost inches, but my scale stayed the same. I was talking to Jenni at the Y, and I was telling her just how crazy my head thinks and she said "you have to do what's best for you." I see people working out 2 times a day, or doing classes everyday, or running everyday, or doing the 30 day shred for an actual 30 day span. That's them, not you. You'll find what you do best, and you will do that and do it good! What triggers you? Do you like working out everyday for 1 hr on the treadmill? Awesome, I don't. Do you like running 5 miles a day at 5 a.m.? Awesome, I don't. Do you like counting your calories everyday to make sure you don't eat more than you should, Awesome, I don't. Do you like taking 2 classes a week and try to fit in 2 more random workouts during the week, Awesome, I do too! Do what you can, when you can. That's all we can do. We aren't superhuman. We aren't perfect, things come up. We all work, we have lives, but what we do all have is HEART. Wear that pretty little heart on your sleeve and go get em.